Pray to heaven with a song
As the winds caress me
Send a prayer up to the light
So that it might help me see
Searching through my memories
Memories, my memories for you
For you

I have come this far having lost every hope
Hope of finding you
But I swear no matter what I've had to face
You've never left my heart

There are sweet memories
They live all around us
How can you not believe in our love
My full heart belongs to you
My life your love leads
I've always stood next to you
In your time of need

Embraced by the warmth of your gentle gaze
I've given you my love
I look for you now in my memories
Heart never mending,
Love never ending
Pray to heaven with our song

I had a dream last night... about getting married.

I was living in a large city... it has trains, so it may have been Calgary or Vancouver.I didn't pay much attention. Anyways, for some reason we had almost like a reception first. It was outdoors (weird because it was this time of year, late october/early november) on a deck beside a large opera house or something. Me and some friends got together with a few invited guests (No more than 30 people... I hate crowds) and we played lively music. There was a lot of on the spot improvisation, and it was so much fun! There were people dancing and everything.

Then it was time to go inside. At this point I was pretty nervous... shaking actually. I fell on my face actually as I walked into the... place. (We agreed to not do a tradition church wedding... she let me win that one) Everyone around just chuckled as if it were just business as usual, and the way I acted, it really seemed business as usual. I was directed to the basement while everybody else went and took seats. I was getting changer in a changing room... me outfit looked like a fanciful... maybe cavalry soldier? It was pretty sweet. (She said seeing as it's not traditional anyways... lets get into the theme of our venue. Seeing as it was around halloween, we dressed up. I let her win that discussion.)

A couple people came and visited me in the change area. Close friends... important people... our conversation were all humorous and cheerful and helped to ease my shattered nerves. I remember having so much fun despite how nervous I was. There wasn't long before we were to go up to the big hall... there was a flight of stairs that seemed to lead up to a stage. Red carpet and all that... seemed like an opera house or theater or something. I was so nervous I remember shaking! But I also remember being really excited... and happy.... and most of all, confident. Under it all, there was confidence... I knew I could do this and make her the happiest girl to ever be the happiest girl ever.... ever. Between you and I, I took a walk and peeked at the wedding dress... It was simple but beautiful. I reminded me of a nun's outfit... or a nurse... but it was white and had gemstones sewn into it. It was simple and graceful... maybe a bit like the girl wearing it. But that's what I loved about it. ;)

Anyways... I went back to the stairs to wait for my dramatic entrance. I grabbed the ring I always wear around my neck... which was likely what I proposed with, because it always calms me. It was time to go. Then my fucking roommate wakes me up ON MY ONLY DAY OFF to CHANGE THE FUCKING LAUNDRY FOR HIM. Jesus that pissed me off... it was such a happy dream. But it's ok... writing this helped out alot. When I figure out who it was wearing that outfit, maybe I'll have to see what they say about it. =D

I had one of the more vivid dreams I've ever had last night. I already knew how it was going to end when it started, but that didn't stop me from enjoying it greatly.

I feel so peaceful right now...

But I'm sure those Megaman fans out there will like this too.

Props to Jacob for finding this.

...because of sheer awesome factor.

http://www.theonion.com/content/opinion/but_if_we_started_dating_it?utm_source=facebook_1

If you NEED to know, yes.

Yup. I don't actually have alot to post about, but I figured I should update to let people know I'm still on here everyday. I do read all of your journals, so even if I have nothing to say, I promise I'm still here.

Let me see.... whats going on these days? Went to Tanis and Jamie's wedding a couple weeks back. That was fun, although I swear that bartender watered down all my JD and Cokes.

Adam Park came for the wedding too. I hung out alot with him... mostly running to the flats for slushes and watching anime. I got introduced to some new snows and learned some things. It was a good time.

Works going pretty smoothly. I've gotten used to everyone at work all over again, so I'm quite content. Also, the boss told me that he wants me to be happy and would help me with my travel plans to the best of his ability. To that extent, he put my wage up to $10 an hour.

Regarding travel plans, Japan is out for this year. Again. I've decided to go to Summer Con instead. It's more affordable, which is the big issue here. Also, no passport is needed. Also, it refers to my next point...

I'm thinking seriously of moving. This year if possible. This town is going to end me if I don't get out of here sometime soonish. Adam has told me alot about Victoria, and it SOUNDS like a nice place. Jossie spoke highly of it as well. So, when I go out there this summer, I'll be going about town and seeing what it's like there. I'll do some homework... see stuff like how employment is, housing, ect. Then and only then, after I've made a through sweep of it's pros and cons will I make my choice.

I'm getting a little chubby. I need to get out and start running again. And playing DDR... that game is great for burning fat.

Thats all I got I guess.

This was done with Vocaloid (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vocaloid) Hatsune Miku, pictured in the video. If your not sure what a Vocaloid is, check out the link.

... It's simply incredible. The lyrics are amazing, but so is the voice. It's amazing to hear that coming from a completely synthesized voice. It still has it's shortfalls, but it's waaaay better than poor outdated microsoft sam.

It's still so good after all this time. My favorite moment in ANY final fantasy game played EVER.

Ok. I know I don't play WoW anymore, but that does NOT mean I can't appreciate something as incredibly chock full of AWESOME as this video.

I'm truly proud to introduce to you...

40 Level 1 Gnomes in a raid against.... HOGGER! *echo effect*



Fuck... I wish I got my guild (Exodarlings) to do this. =(

And I miss my Liz0r. =(

Ahahah. This one actually isn't that bad! I just have a lot of stuff on the go, and a lot more stuff not working out right now. The good news is I'm well on my way out of the debt I accumulated with my phone. The bad news('s)... the biggest one really right now is that both shoulder button on my DSi have stopped working. It makes life really hard for games that need those. =/ I'm going to open it up after I'm done eating my Beef Yakisoba /w rice and see if I can fix it. If not, then I guess I'm just not meant to have anything that doesn't have something on it that isn't broken. I'm tired out and need some time off. Sadly, I'm not sure I can afford to take time off right now. =/ I figure I'll do my taxes tonight and use that to pay for the rest of my cell bill. The remainder will be saved. Japan trip is looking less and less likely, but I'll hold onto hope for now. I need to buy a bike too... it would make getting to work alot easier. Oh! I almost forgot! I downloaded fricken SKI FREE today! SKI FREE! So awesome.

Anyways, that's my brain dump for now.

It's been awhile since I've posted!

Christmas was ok this year. I got a few pairs of socks and a reeeeeally emo looking sweater from my mom. I'll likely never wear it, but I appreciate the thought! Although I certainly appreciated the turkey dinner more. On that note, I had dinner at Jossie's place too, was was excellent also! Thanks again for that!

New Year's was a blast and a half! I mean, just wow! My mom let me use her basement and told us we could be loud as we like. We took two TV's down there, set up my Wii (With games like Boom Blox and Raving Rabbids!), and IIDX 15 on the other one hooked up to a subwoofer with surround sound. IT WAS GLORIOUS (DAYS!)!! It was quite the night! I remember Jossie discovered Vanilla Vodka and brought it over (along with several others!) and we got Kyle-chan quite drunk, which was awesome. I took a bunch of pictures with my DSi that night, and I put them up on my Facebook! Check em out if you like!

First IIDX song's of the year!
Jossie: Smooooooch - Kors K
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysfpIkv95mU&feature=related
Jrrrd: ICARUS - Kors K
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rSmL4Po29V4&feature=PlayList&p=2D6378AA5BC5B9CC&index=57
Brent: Wanna Party? - RAM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E4dDUnngjeI
Jacob: Brainstorm - Teranoid and a bunch of other people
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uzRo_Pn9pYg&feature=PlayList&p=2D6378AA5BC5B9CC&index=77

Kors K won. For realz.

School.... this is a weird one. I was working too much last semester, because I actually managed to fail a course. This is a setback, but I intend to make it as minimal a setback as I can. In that spirit, this is the plan. I'll be starting the course I failed on February 1st seeing as I'm doing it open learning and we have different schedules than everyone else. I'll take 2 weeks to do the entire course, because once again we do things differently. After that, I'll be back on track and will continue on as planned with 20 level courses. Kinda embarrassing I failed, but meh. I'll get through it.

Lastly, I need to dig myself out of this hole I'm in. I got my phone company calling me telling me to pay my bill. =P I'll pay that on the 16th, and put the rest of that check into savings. After all, if I'm going to Japan THIS YEAR (excite) I'll NEED the money. Things will be tight for awhile, but I can handle that. That said, I do plan on going to Calgary next month. I'm going to try not to overspend while I'm up there like I usually do. =/ If I need to, I'll give my debit card to Jossie.

Anyways, I think that's almost all. Sometime I'll do a review on my DSi, but not now. I'm tired. XD

Take care!

I've found a torrent for DJ Troopers. Now, It's complete, and I've extracted it. Everything is going well... until now.



Is it just me, or is there no .iso or .rom file. Any ideas?

Oh. It's not spyware or a virus. I checked that already... twice.

If anyone can help, that would be cool. Otherwise I'm stuck waiting for Jossie to remember about me and bring the game over for me to burn. Which may well take until next year, seeing as it IS Christmas. Anyone?

Yay snow!

Let's see... I have stuff to talk about tonight!

My mother is now renting a house. It's a nice place, although it's bare right now and needs some fixing. It used to be a party house, and it's previous owners trashed it bad before they left. My mom and her boyfriend are fixing it up right now, and they want me to move in. The room I'd be in is seriously twice the size of the one I got now, and I'll be allowed to use the basement (Which is quite nice!) as my own personal nerd lair! With a bar! And the rent is only $250 a month.. my mom wants me to save money and do well in school. The only thing I'm worried about is that if... no I guess when she relapses and drinks, whether she's going to get kicked out, taking me with her. I think I'll be able to stop it, but we'll have to see. Otherwise, it's just the usual 'mommy nags' that would get me down. Oh, and lack of internet. Apparently the have a router, but I'd have to set up a wireless network myself, which means I'd have to buy stuff. So... I guess in conclusion, is this awesome? Y/N

ENEMY PLANE APPROACH. DJ Troopers is out this month. Jacob is buying a PS2 so we can mod it, I'll order in a swap disk for him, and then we're going to buy copies for ourselves. Yes, we could get it burned. But... I guess we just want to have this one cause it's so badass! =3

The strangest thing happened today. I was in a topic on facebook, discussing how people were getting overly upset and needed to calm down, when a person I had been chatting back and forth with used a DnD reference! I proclaimed my love for her on the spot, and we added each other to our friends lists. She's pretty badass... an anime geek like me, and satan's spawn! A physicist. I'll have to ask her if all they really do all day is hide in bushes while kids go down the slides and calculate their velocities.

Thats all I got for you. I'm looking forward to hearing people comment on the whole moving thing. Really, I could use the hand!

Hey all. Just bored, so I figured I'd update.

Lets see. I've started work at the new Edo restaraunt last monday. I've been putting in 10 hour days, but it's fun and I work with half my friends so it's a lot of fun. Literally all of the people working there are friends outside of work, so we make random references all the time. For example, I printed out a picture of ceiling cat and taped it to the grill hood. Also, it amuses me that we're a Japanese food place run by Chinese people, and the instruction books for half the equipment are Korean.

I've had no life recently, so thats all I got for you I guess. Oh... I found a torrent for a brillant green discography a day or two ago. I've been listening to it pretty heavily.. but I suppose only Juju will appreciate that. The search for music continues, so send me suggestions! Also, I've sent letters to the people who gave me addresses. I can't wait to get responses! ;)

A magikarp. Oh god.

I'm glad to have met you too so far. Even though I went to a place I hate, I still had alot of fun despite doing something I hate doing. Thank you for a great night out and I hope we have more nights like this. Heree's to a new start! *passes out*

Cause each new beginning begins with some other beginnings end.

That aside, what have I been up to? Not tons in particular. I've been working out a little, and going out for jogs on a frequent basis. It feels good to get out there and sweat. I can almost feel the Wendy's grease leaving my pores. =/

I preordered the new Warhammer MMO. I think that'll be alot of fun. Also, I've heard rumors that the new Harvest Moon will have ostriches. Yes, freaking OSTRICHES.

SINE! COSINE! TANGENT!

Oh. I start school tomorrow. Or more like orientation. Still... Ima college student! I can't wait to see where this goes.

Thats all for now. Oh, except for the new phone I guess. If you want that number, check my Facebook. Yup. Talk to you later!

It's been awhile.

For a little while, I've been on a wild rollercoaster ride. I've been so moody the last couple weeks it's fairly crazy. A few things...

- Went to the bar a couple nights. Had some fun dancing, but seeing as I can't seem to go to the bar without even complete starngers trying to start drama with me, I decided against going more often. Still.... I guess once in a while couldn't hurt.

- About a week ago, I woke up with a sore throat and fever. It was so bad I had to sit on a chair while I was at work. I got home and my fever broke early in the morning. However, the sore throat persists even until today (although considerably better now). A couple days ago, I was going to go to walk in because I though it was Strep Throat. If it was or not, I've mostly recovered thanks to Halls and Buckelys. That Benylyn crap didn't do shit.

- Last week, before the sore throat thing happened, I took to jogging home from work on a nightly basis.I'm to the point where I can jog most of the way home without stopping. Here's a map for those not sure of the distance involved here.
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- I've been reading the Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu light novel series online recently. Doing so has been really great for my imagination! I've been quite creative recently, making stepfiles and whatnot. Maybe I'll toss some of the ones I've made up here if people want me to?

- I have an appointment on the 14th at the college to speak with a counseller. We're going to go over my transcripts and figure out what I need for a high school diploma. From there... maybe I'll take a few more classes, like a Japanese class even? Just looked at the site and I think I may be screwed for that... but we'll see when I talk to the couseller? Other things I'm interested in are getting a GED (General Education Diploma), Management Studies, History, Psycology, Social Studies, Dance, and perhaps even an English or Linguistics course! Of course, we'll see what happens. http://www.mhc.ab.ca/

- Work is work. We had a few easy nights recently however, and I'm grateful for that. It's continuing to be a blast to work with the people there. I don't know how their going to react to me cutting my hours for school, but I'm sure they'll understand. They want whats best for me too.

- Oddly enough, I've been talking with Tanis online alot recently. And been enjoying it. It's nice to have someone to talk to at 4am I suppose. Her and Jamie are going to be coming down for Jamies b-day, and we've made plans to get quite drunk together with him in celebration. Woot!

- Tonight, just before I made this entry, I decided to do some laps around the block to burn off extra energy. As I jogged along the coulee tops on my second lap, I got lazy and did something I havn't done in awhile. I walked out into the long grass and laid down. I watched the stars. "Without nature, the spirit dies." I guess this is just my way of reviving my spirit... I feel alot better. I'm admittedly dissapointed that I didn't spot any UFO's... but there will be lots of time for that yet. I think I'll have to do that more often.

Thats the gist of what I've been up to. I think I'm not going to post anywhere near as often as I used to... It's far more fun for me to make these posts, because this way I have alot to write about. Anyways... thats all. Take care everyone.

I'm in Winnipeg! I'm running on an hours sleep still, but I'll have a quickie anyways. ;)

-Random Thunderstorms on the Highway #1 are awesome
-Krisi and Darren did a great job organizing the conference. =)
-Darren's GF Jenn is also awesome. =)
-I didn't make it past the first round of the ITG tournament.
-I also didn't make it past the second round of the IIDX tournament.
-I DISAGREE
-Flying is fun! <3
-Winnipeg adventures will proceed on the morrow.

I'm likely going to spend awhile wandering around downtown by myself, since Mandi has to work. I don't mind, since it's my first real chance to explore the city myself. If anyone wants to come be alone with me however, my number is 403-928-8088! That said, I need sleep. Expect a full update in the next couple days.